a face in your dreams

sometimes things go where you never thought they could. you try and keep a hold on them, keep in control at all times so as not to get lost, but you can't keep up with everything all the time. and it's a mixed result. you're somewhere new and exciting, and yet everyone else can't be there with you. does anyone ever really want to go back to the way things were?

for the first time in a while, i have no idea what you're thinking. and it scares me just a little that i'm not worried about you, about how you are and how you'll be. everyone will go on and be just fine. and if not, well, what can you do.

i wrote an almost complete post yesterday. the problem with not posting it after it's written is that you look back on it later, and since you're not the same person you were yesterday, you don't see what you wrote in the same light. it's all just a little bit tainted. but i haven't deleted it, i don't delete posts or change the date on them, but i don't know if i can put it out there. it's just not... complete.

whoever said being yourself would be easy.