on present and future

tomorrow i have to turn in my course selection sheet, and hope that they don't fuck it up and give me some bad classes. i never realized how really terrible st. mike's is until this year. probably because of our new insane principal. but really, it is. we have no classes of worth. we're a college prep school, but in my opinion they try to make you suffer and fail more than prepare you for college. since we're a private school, and with generally a decent tuition ($4600? or is it already $4800? i know they keep upping it $200 each year), we don't have the opportunities that the public schools have. can't have more classes because that would mean more teachers and a bigger school, both of which the brothers don't have money for. oh yeah did i mention this is a catholic private school, started and still somewhat run by christian brothers? well, it is. anyway we can't have decent classes because we don't have the resources. we don't have a lot of decent teachers because they get paid less than public schools (and really who wants to live in new mexico and teach high school students of all things). hell we don't even have adults who care about us, now with br. richard (old principal) gone and dr. crazy in power.

oh, there are so many things wrong with our school. really really stupid things. but the really bad part is: this is new mexico, just about the worst state in the union. i'm pretty sure our school systems are ranked the worst (maybe ben you know some real statistics about this). so i can't even change schools to a good public one, because there is no decent public school in santa fe, or surrounding area where i live. so i just have to hang on for two and a half semesters before i graduate.

oh yeah and that's the other thing... we can't even graduate early. i probably would have fulfilled all my credits by now if i were in public school, and i probably would opt to graduate early and get the fuck out of this situation, but no, st. mike's doesn't allow people to graduate early. they have it set up in their credit system. and i only have to take 2 and 1/2 credits next year to have all of them, that means 3 classes one semester, 2 the next, but instead of letting me just take those 3 classes and then leaving to work or something, i have to have 6 credits so i can have a full schedule. "it's a closed campus, you can't not have a full schedule and leave early".

damn them.

so as it is, added onto my english, government/econ, and religion credits that i need to graduate, i'm signing up to take calc honors, physics, creative writing 1, sociology, and art 2. that is if they don't fuck up my schedule and sign me up for something like french 1 or service learning or humanities.

bah. as it gets closer to the play i get more irritable. bah. that's a totally different post, and i could go on and on and on about that.

not to get off track, but i really hate it when people (my parents) come up behind me when i'm on the computer, especially blogging. especially since i forbid my parents from reading my blog (i've never given them the address, never will, and i make sure that they can't find a way to get to it. the day that happens, you can shoot me). the ultimate invasion of privacy by your parents. at least for me it is.

boo hoo, life sucks, and i really don't want to get used to it.