right

there are few places where i feel right. one just happens to be a theater. i was sitting in the zohn theater tonight, watching rehearsal of a play that i feel that i know now, i've read and thought about and internalized, almost going crazy in the process... but seeing the actors, tom's setup and interpretation of it... i missed being onstage immensely. and to think, a real stage, in a real theater. lights and sound, backstage, having the option of changing sets. direction, being able to take a character apart and build them up as someone real, react to everything around, the situation, the emotions, blocking, frustrations and accomplishments. sharing inside jokes with fellow thespians. being able to say thespians and be understood. i miss it all.

i want to be a part of that again. it won't happen soon... i have too much that i can't handle already. but next semester, i'll have things at least halfway figured out. i'll be able to spend 4 hours every day at rehearsal. i'll be able to focus on my job. i'll be able to feel good after the production's over. and then i'll belong somewhere again. all i ever did was drama... and even then i didn't do it well. i want to do it well.

which has a better theatre scene, nmsu or unm?