those little things

i've spent who knows how long looking through si message boards. they don't help, and i can't even find one that seems like it could...

god why can't i ever talk about this

because no one would care

recent deterrants: driving really fast and slightly reckless, stereo blasting, crying harder than i ever have before

scared me bad

but i still wanted to

still want to

2 months, 23 days

had the urge almost every day

give it a week

i'm too tired not to do it anymore