i've never considered myself an athiest before...

why do i feel bad/weird by thinking that there is no god? it's really pissing me off. ever since doyle had us write that stupid who is god paper i've been feeling that there is no god. every time i think about it i come to the conclusion that there is no god. WHY WHY WHY CAN'T I THINK GOD EXISTS??!! damnit this is really getting to me. and going to church doesn't really help either.

will someone please talk to me about this so i won't go insane? i mean really, athiest or not, i have to believe that i'm not doing something totally wrong by thinking god can't exist.

or show me how god does exist. i don't know... DAMNIT!