need to vent

bah. BAH. so far it's been one bad day after another, and it's all because of school. fuck it. i'm not transfering out of calc. i'm not changing anything. it's an honors class, all i have to do is keep a C. which will majorly piss me off, but hey, it's better than stressing about the non-teacher.

and so what if senior year is supposed to be the best? it's just like any other year at that school. why on earth should i even think of having a good time?

so i'm taking it like i took seventh and eighth grade. live for the weekends. do it over again. and one day you'll get out of the dazed indifference and see that the year's halfway over.

if you can't hack the 4.0 gpa, fuck it. why does it matter getting out of state for college anyway? nothing really matters except your relationships, when you think about it. and i, i don't have many of those to worry about anymore.

school is overrated. you could teach your kid everything they'd need to know (k-12) by the time they're 10. it's just such a waste of time.

in other news, apparently my english teacher really liked my "college essay".

go figure.