why?

i'm a pissed off, tired, and moody little bitch right now. so i know that anything written today will be complete complaining shit.

i don't want to do this anymore. i start out having a pretty good day, and then those damn adults open their mouths and bring me down. blah blah blah, i'm god, blah blah, you're all shit, blah blah blah is ALL they seem to be saying. i've had to put up with this shit for too many years, and i can't do it anymore. wait, scratch that, i probably can keep putting up with it. i just don't want to. right now i don't really give a fuck about my future. seriously i can't even see myself alive in 2 years (which does scare me a little).

i'm too fucking pissed off at myself to even address the issue. this same stupid issue i've been pissed about for the past 2 months or so. so this too must end. every freaking thing i do has to stop. i'm fucking killing myself and not even meaning to do it.

whatever. i'm a lazy bitch who takes everything for granted.

i was going to post something substantial today, but it's not gonna happen. not until i get out of this... person that i've become.

fuck this i can't believe i still blog even though no one fucking cares about this. maybe i'll phoenix it all.