ah life

i don't know what to say. i feel totally lost without them, yet they're DRIVING ME INSANE!

i miss my friends who could get where i was coming from.

thinking of going to atzlan, blowing my money, and getting myself royally fucked up. that or buying myself clothes that actually fit. all black. heavy mascara/eyeliner and piercings wouldn't hurt either. while we're on the subject of what would make me feel better, i must find a razor blade. if not for actual cutting, then for a nice reminder of how fucked up my head is.

fuck life and fuck school. i'm getting out while i'm still slightly sane.